Ch.. ch.. ch.. changes

My birthmom is moving away.

To Oregon.

She and my step-father have built a brand new home and will be moving in around June 19th.

I had no idea that this was going to happen so soon!

And let me tell you, I’m a little bit worried about having her so far away from me.

For the last twenty two years, she’s been no more than a 2 hour drive away from me.

Now she’ll be a 2 hour flight away from me.

I’m definitely having feelings about this but what they are, I haven’t a clue.

Sadness.

Anxiety.

How will I see her when she’s 600+ miles away?

Honestly, I never considered how it would feel to lose her.

I’ve been taking her presence for granted.

I haven’t seen her as much as I should have or visited as much as I wanted to.

And she’s always been there for me when I needed her.

Their new home is BEAUTIFUL and it’s selfish of me to want her to stay.

I know I’ll adjust.

I’m just saying, I’ve got FEELINGS about this and they’re not all roses and rainbows.

I feel like I’m being left behind.

And it doesn’t feel good.

3 thoughts on “Ch.. ch.. ch.. changes

  1. Oregon isn’t that far of a drive. My kids used to do it every so often from VA and also from GA. Flying is faster, though– And it is really pretty over that way! I’ve lived most of my life in much of the state. Granted, I prefer Alaska, but Oregon isn’t bad.
    I will be thinking of you as you adjust- hug.

    • ugh–I just looked at that first sentence! Obviously, I merged two thoughts into a bad phrase. I’m very sorry! Oregon isn’t that far away and it is a fun drive. (I drove from Oregon to MN and back, too-)

  2. Oregon is a wonderful place to live. It’s a bit of an adjustment for a Nor Cal transplant for sure but eventually it really grows on you and she will love living here. If you ever are in need of a drive by to be sure she’s behaving, you just let me know 😉

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