That Voice

There’s this nasty voice in our heads that likes to talk to us when it’s quiet and we’re left alone to our own thoughts.

Lately, my voice has been RAGING at me.

You’re not good enough.

You’re not smart enough.

You’re not pretty enough.

You’re not successful enough.

You’re not thin enough.

Enough. Enough! ENOUGH!

I’ve had it with this voice!

Have you ever heard of neuroplasticity?

It’s the brain’s ability to form new neural connections throughout life.

I want to train my brain to stop thinking this way.

And where the fuck did I learn this from anyway?

Self-loathing isn’t present at birth.

It’s something we learn.

Well, if I can learn it then I can UNLEARN it.

So every time that voice goes off in my head, I let it.

I let it say its piece and get it all out in the open.

Then I calmly and confidently tell myself the exact opposite.

I’m extraordinary.

I’m brilliant.

I’m beautiful.

I’m talented.

I’m deliciously curvy.

I’m more than enough.

And I SHUT THAT NASTY VOICE UP!

I suppose I could rely on my friends to tell me how wonderful I am.

But I figure that means I’ll always need a steady source of external validation.

Something I can’t count on.

So I’m learning it myself.

Let’s just hope my grey matter is ready to form new pathways.

My new hero?

Little Jessica (see her video below):

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