I wrote this post a month ago after I saw this TikTok video and had what you might call a lesbian awakening*:
I called up Tejas with a very important question to ask him.
Me: Tejas do you think I might be gay?
Me: I’m serious. Have I ever given off a gay vibe to you? Have you ever once thought, ‘Michelle might be gay?’
Tejas: There was the one time you got kissed by a woman on the playa. . .
Me: I’ll explain. Lately, I’ve felt so lackluster about men. I’m wondering is it because I’m gay?
Tejas: No. You’re not gay. You’re one of those women who appreciates men more than others. You prefer the company of men to women. Tell me how many girlfriends do you have?
Me: Plenty. There’s Barbara. And Michelle. And my sister. And my cousin Jennifer.
Tejas: But none of those are romantic relationships.
Me: No. I’m just wondering if it’s possible for women to begin to look more appealing.
Tejas: But you like masculine men.
Me: I’ve met some pretty ‘masculine’ women.
I’m not making light of the LGBTQ experience, which I am fully immersed in as the parent of an LGBTQ child.
I’m genuinely questioning my own direction when it comes to pursuing relationships.
I just haven’t had much luck with men.
Maybe it’s because I’ve been mainstreamed into believing in my own heterosexuality.
I spend all my time dating men when I should be relaxing the entrance criteria.
As Tejas pointed out, it’s not like I don’t have the opportunity to go ahead and check it out for myself.
Maybe the reason I haven’t found my lumberjack is that she’s a lumberjill.
*Note: After I saw THIS VIDEO, I’ve since decided that I’m pretty straight. But kudos to women for being so. damn. sexy.