There’s always a silver lining, or so they say.
It seems unspeakably wrong to have anything good come out of an active shooter situation.
The tragic loss of life and the incredible suffering of those affected by the horror of the shootings at the Garlic Festival far outweigh any positive outcome I could mention.
But I’ll mention it anyway.
People have come out of the woodwork to tell me how much they love me.
Just today, I got a video chat from my friend Michelle telling me how much she loves me and how glad she is that I’m safe.
My boys hugged me like they haven’t seen me in years.
I got calls from longtime friends asking how I’m doing and do I need to talk.
Nadine took me out to dinner Wednesday night.
It was the first time I’d seen her since the shooting.
I hugged her like time would never end.
Barbara called me up in tears, so worried that I came that close to an active shooter.
Everyone is so thankful that the new guy and I left early and weren’t there for the shooting.
It’s enough to make a grown woman cry.
And I did.
In the wake of the shooting (and The Swede’s engagement), I find myself comfortably cocooned in the love and affection of my friends and family, making a difficult week somewhat bearable.
Out of necessity, I think we all inhabit a place where life is less tentative and fragile than it is, until something happens to shock us out of our fog and make us aware that life is fleeting.
I’m living in that space right now.
Our capacity for causing pain is enormous.
All you need to do is read the headline news.
But it is surpassed by our ability to love, help, comfort and provide joy.
In the end, once I’ve moved through this painful place, that is what I’ll take away.