To say I had a case of the nerves when I went out with Tejas would be an understatement.
I was uptight. Tense. Nervous. On edge.
He called me out on it.
I ordered a gin and tonic to mellow the eff out. It worked. Before I knew it, Tejas and I were chatting like old friends and I was enjoying myself.
The waitress kept coming by our table and saying I was pretty. I wanted to tip her every time she said it.
That’s how you get a big tip, yes indeed.
Tejas and I talked about Burning Man, my kids, health, and his former relationship. It was odd to talk about another woman on a first date but since I know her and like her, it wasn’t all that odd.
Although I will say that it’s rather obvious that Tejas still has a thing for her. It makes me pause and wonder if I should proceed with dating him.
As I put it, “you don’t date because your dream woman is taken by another man, you date because you realize your dream woman is still out there.”
And I stand by that statement.
After dinner, Tejas and I went to get frozen yogurt even though I was jonesing for ice cream. Tejas convinced me to make a healthier choice. The nice thing about Tejas is that I can admit my weight issues to him without fear of judgment or criticism.
Then we went to my place where we were mercilessly bugged by my oldest son who takes some sort of keen interest in the men I date.
Two scotch on the rocks later, we were chummy as could be and I was falling asleep on Tejas.
We kissed. Several times.
He has very soft lips.
But as we were kissing, my mischievous son flicked the stair lights on and off and on and off again alerting us to the fact that we had no privacy and he was misbehaving.
What must Tejas think of my parenting skills that my teenage son acts this way.
We snuck in a few more kisses before saying goodnight.
Was I swept away?
I can feel myself digging in, restlessly holding on to my single status. Reluctant to open up to a man who is in love with another woman.
I mean, in order to fall for an available man, the man has to be AVAILABLE first.
So we’ll see where this goes. If nothing else I have a friend with benefits.
And that ain’t bad.
P.S. I told Tejas my two big secrets and he still likes me, so I’ve got that going for me. Nothing like a little transparency and acceptance to make a girl feel good about herself.