And those of you who know me personally know this to be true.
Ever have a really funny exchange with me where we wind up just staring at one another, not saying anything?
Or have you ever heard me make a strange joke in the middle of a conversation then laugh at myself painfully until my laughter dies out?
Growing up, I was an awkward child. I hid behind my father’s legs and only came out to socialize when I was forced to.
My shyness sprung out of a strange habit I had of stammering. My stammer was so bad I saw a speech pathologist for it.
Eventually I grew out of the stammer but the awkwardness… well, that remained.
My parents entered me in a speech contest my sophomore year in high school to get me over my shyness.
All this did was teach me how to FAKE NOT BEING SHY.
Despite my awkwardness I’ve managed to be quite successful at dating by simply thinking fast on my feet and coming up with topics of conversation as quickly as a comedian spits out a come back.
But if you really want to get to know me, then the best way is to write to me.
I’m best with texts and emails. In fact, some of my most passionate love affairs and great friendships started out via texting/email.
So forgive me my awkwardness. It’s not for lack of interest. Talking just isn’t the best medium for me to express myself.
What can I say?
I’m a writer.
It’s how I work.